Market Town : Tilney1 : The pornography of despair & the ideas of reference
How to fight the loneliness? How to fight the medication? How to fight the diagnosis? How to fight who you are and who you might not be?
How to fight the loneliness? How to fight the medication? How to fight the diagnosis? How to fight who you are and who you might not be?
Following Simon’s last visit to the gym where a Drop (Atonic) Seizure ended the session both prematurely and with injury it was of great importance to him that he get back there and face the challenge again. It was only nine days later I recieved the call to tell me he was heading back.
Plans are so hard to make when you live in a constant state of fear, always at the mercy of a seizure when least expected.
Tilney1’s day to day life is unchanged since our last meeting. Still the same trials of his Schizotypal and Obsessive Compulsive disorders to face, the stresses of his apartment block and the ever present loneliness. His ebullience however about an art project suggested by staff member Alex at the Under 1 Roof drop in centre was both overwhelming and infectious.
I had a miscarriage at 15 and then I had Danielle at 17 so I was really young. I was with Danielle’s father and there was lots of violence in the relationship, drink, drugs so that was the reason behind me leaving him.
I never had any plans. Just take it as it comes. Never made any plans. I never knew nothing you see, coming from a small village up in the country like I did. Then, when I was a child in Ireland the country was on the breadline. That’s why a lot of Irish people up and left for America because they just couldn’t live in Ireland, there was no money, no work, no Doctors, no Social Security, no nothing.